Showing posts with label My Space. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My Space. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Fragrance of Life



Smell or Odor…
These two words are very much familiar to us. Many times it gives us intense pleasure and sometimes fills our heart with sour feeling!! But one thing is always for sure that no one can intentionally memorise a smell! Its actually our unconscious mind and our brain which always store each and every smell which we encounter in our lifetime! We can easily understand by smelling the air around us that the gas is leaking, some delicious food is in there in the kitchen, someone has used a strong smelling perfume etc. etc…
It’s a natural phenomena that until and unless one smells a good food, some delicious you don’t really feels hungry! And after smelling that you cant stop your appetite!!
Smells always reminds us about some good, something tasty and something beautiful!
These smells or odors always carry some memories and some events with it. I wanted to discuss that only in this post. All these above part are nothing but the introduction…
When I was in class I, my papa bought me one study table. It was the biggest and the most precious gift at that time for me! As a kid I used to study a lot; and after the arrival of that study table, I became a “Book Worm”!! Seriously, within a very short time that table became my whole world! That feeling of sitting on the chair and having a big, brilliant table in front of myself with various types of books on it, filled my heart with pride and surprise that, “How much I have grown up!!!”
My mom used to give me milk during my studies. I hate milk like anything! But she knew, if am studing that too with the study table, then there will be no objections and complains about the milk! I’ll drink it delightfully!!
That table had two drawers. I used to store my color pencils there. Whenever I used to open the drawer a “Woody” smell comes out of it! I loved that smell a lot… days have passed, I have grown up and ma requirements also! That study table also grew older, without increasing the size! So that sweet smelling small study table was replaced by another bigger one…
My mom now uses that table in her kitchen! One of the drawers have broken! The other one we rarely open! That old table has lost its color, its strength!... but one thing is still same…. Today also whenever I open the drawer that “Woody” smell comes out of it! And that smell take me around 18-19 yrs back, within a fraction of seconds!... I can smell my childhood!! It has a beautifull “Woody” smell!!
It’s a feeling, so good, nice and nostalgic!
…Not just the nonliving things, one particular individual also deliver some good smell always! Am not talking about using special scents or perfumes. Like my mom, my dad, my granny always smells like “Mom” “Dad” and “Grandma”!!! it’s a fact!
From my childhood, I used to sleep with ma grandma, whenever I went to my “Mama Ghar”. Grandma’s bed always smells like “Grandma”!... seriously! Recently my granny came to our home for her treatment. In those days also I slept with her. When she went back to mama ghar, I discovered that granny left her “Grandma” smell in that bed also, which was used by my mom before grandma, and previously it smells like “Mom”!!!... I love “Grandma” smell a lot!
When I was in hostel during my Engg, my mom gave me her shawl. During winters I cant imagine my mom without that shawl. But on that special winter of my first year, she gave it to me! Whenever I used it, I used to miss my mom! That shawl carried that “Mom” smell! I used to feel home sick!! Sometimes the conditions were so bad that I used to cry out of home sickness!!
I left using that shawl afterwards! But whenever I felt low, depressed, I used to sleep with that! It gave me strength and warm in its special way!
I told mom about all these feelings; but she was like its natural, extremely natural!... may be! But I fell some uniqueness within it!...
… the feelings of the first love is very special to everyone! No one on this planet can ignore this fact!... it’s a feelings which can make you feel peace in your most disturbed state of mind also!... that serenity is awesome!!..
I also experienced this feelings almost seven yrs back! But unfortunately, my this feelings is related with a very pungent smell!!.. I had never realized it till last yr. Around in November last yr, I went to a friend’s home. Her place was near our old coaching centre. It is a nostalgic place for me for so many reasons! But the main was that I met him first here itself!
Whatever that incidence is now 7-8 yrs old. Things have changed a lot now…
When I was returning from my friend’s home and waiting for the bus, a strong pungent smell hit ma nose! Instantly I felt like crying! I was bit depressed for a moment! As if m missing something!
“Why am feeling like this??!!” that smell was still in the air! Suddenly that closed doors of my past opened up… I realize that this was the same spot where I used to wait for bus after my coaching. And that special person also used to come to that place, sometimes for the bus and sometimes for other purpose! Those anxious days of my life also had this smell! Am writing anxious, but it was a beautiful anxiety!!
Last yr only that smell made me curious! Where from this smell is coming??!! I discovered a tree where new flowers were blooming! And that new flowers delivering that scent(!!?). it was not a known plant for me! I asked my dad also about it but he was also unaware of the name…
While my mom blocks her nose whenever she encounter this smell of the tree, I always fill my lungs with that scent, that air, so that I can feel that innocent and special feelings once again….


I always wonder, whether I have some smell or scent??? Do I smell like something???
My mom answers, “No!” my dad said, “You use a strong deo!” … these are not my type of answers!
I got my answer few days back!
My uncle has got his transfer to Silsar last month. Uncle, aunty and my sweet little cute cousin brother came for dinner before leaving to that place.... my mom always gives the old cloths of my brother to my cousin brothers. That day my little cousin was “lucky person” to get those cloths!..( I have named my cousin bro as Munu and he calls me Shunu! We are very much attached to each other, though he’s 18yrs younger than me!!)
Munu was excited like anything! For him those were his new cloths! He was also helping mom to find out the suitable one for him!!
Suddenly he got stuck at one of my old frocks!.. “ I want this!” munu was sure about his decision! Mom was trying to convince him that it was not for boys it was for gilrs! But he was continuously crying for that frock!
“Ok,Ok! Ask shunu whether she’ll give it to u or not?!” mom knows that am very much possessive about my things. So she gave that solution to him!
Munu came to me with that frock in his hands! “will you give it to me!” my instant answer was NO!! “its not for you boys, its for girls!”
He was curious, a bit tensed! “I’m not going to wear this!!...!”
“then??!” I was bit surprised! After a pause he asked me, “will you come to meet me regularly when I’ll go to silsar??”
I took him on my lap and replied, “no love that will not be possible for me to come there! Its far away from Guwahati!.. I’ll call u regularly!...!”
Munu was happy instantly and smiled! He said, “ Ok then. Give this frock to me! It smells like YOU!... I’ll not miss you anymore there!!...!”
A storm of emotions hit me! Immediately I felt like crying out of surprise! That 7 yrs old cutiepie has found me in my frock!! For him it was smelling like ME!!
I gave that frock to him. My mom was bit surprised but I wasn’t! I know the reason why am giving this to Munu! He was happy like anything!.. he gave me his drawing book so that I wont miss him! But it smells like color more than Munu!!.. still that drawing book always remind me about my cutiepie brother Munu!
That day I got my answer! I also carry some scent which make me different from others!....


…. Every person in this world has some scent, some good and some beautifull within him!
Smell it, treasure it and cherish those moments….


Sunday, May 30, 2010

Some time spent with U...

eti somyo hondhiya moi koisilu teuk.bhal paun tumak ontor bhori....

haahisil teu muloi saai...
kisumaan abhimaan thup khaisil mur monor majot!

kio? moi teuk bhal pabo nuwaru?
kio nuwaru?
teur hei bihalota
teur hei udarota

kio mur hobo nuare?
teur hei uddatto kontho t ji ek gobhir aaswas..
mur kio hobo nuware??

hei nila sagor khonok moi bhal pau!
pran bhori..
 teu kio mur hobo nuware?

moi j dub jabo khuju hei bihal nila-t...
teu j muk koi...
moi tumak aakuwali lobo nuwaru...
aakontho onubhob koribo bisaru
 teur nila joldhara...
                                                                          
teu muk koi ...
priya tumi mur nohoba...

aakash khonolooi mur eersha
mur priyotom-k tumi hei digontot kio suma jasiba???!!!
Kisumaan abhimaan-e aakou muk khede...
Sagar-e muk kole..
Etibaar mathu aakashe torar hei buta bosa sador khon pindhi ohar homoyot,
Tumi u aahiba…Tumak bhal pua ki kom..

Goisilu.. tuer kahot bohi hinisilu teur
monor kotha…
Aakash khon sakhi aasil..
Teur jolorashiye mur podotol  suisil…
Teu koisil hei paaror boga balisor aaru teur prem kahini!


Eti ontohin jatra..
Kunudin ek hobo nuwariu ek hoi ruwar madokota…
Bujisilu teur bihalotak hei dina,
Usoror pora!
Ontor bhori nomon korisilu hei udarota-k…
Teu aakou koisil…
He priya tumi aahiba
Aakou ketiyaba nishar aakash khonor hoite…

Kothapatim aami bure…Moi je hosakoyei bor olohoriya!
huni goisilu hokolubur... 
kotha disilu teuk
he gobhirota tumak okolhoriya hobo nidiu!

uttorot teu mur aasolkhon tiyaisil........
hopunbur henu enedorei titi thake eti ontohin aashar opekhat!

  

Friday, April 30, 2010

The Difference

From my childhood some stupid thoughts always used to disturb me like hell! I was sensitive n silent child. So those questions raised  inside me n died off there itself, without any kind of answers....

From the day i heard about "suicide", the actual facts about it, it somehow became one fascinating thing for me! It may sound so funny or so depressing but i was always curious to know what is it exactly!? Why does people think of killing themselves?! God, its so   impractical!..

For so many years i was followed by those thoughts! It was obvious that somehow i was also trapped into those thoughts...
whenever i faced some failure, the thought of suicide follow me. Whenever i stand alone doing some really disgusting things, again this suicide thought follows me! But its really not like that i want to do that extreme thing! No!!! A BIG NO!!!... Whenever i think of suicide n start planning how to do that, in that whole process i always able to start thinking positively! Coz, what i feel somewhere down there inside my little heart i know i cant leave this world so easily! :) Or it will not be that easy for me to do that!! Seriously! In that whole process i start feeling the never feeling  love for ma family ma freinds everyone!Even if due to some person i was thinking about suicide, then its not a strange part if i start feeling soft for him/her too!!! Thats why, i never worry about ma suicide thoughts!

And right now after growing up as a lady (Full Fledged!!), i have controls on ma thought!

But no one can change that easily!

That day i was feeling very low! Those stupid stupid thoughts was about to be heavy on me! I connected ma net and star Googling! Some thoughts about life, inspiring n beautiful! I searched some pics... Suddenly ma eyes got stuck on dis pic which m publishing today on ma article!.. I started thinking about this person. Alone on the top of a dangerous mountain or hill, whatever it is... He is walking towards the edge! What he is trying to do? My suicide porn mind answered, "Suicide! ya he's going to die now!" I started thinking, God if some one fall down from that height then its impossible to survive anyhow!!... I was excited!...Thrilled!
I opened the link to save the pic. In ma download folder i searched the pic! Ya there it is! but was shocked! Y you know? That pic was named as "Leadership"!!
It was big slap on the face of  ma "suicidal" thinking mind!!!......

Ohh God! it was so inspirational! I really really loved that pic!...

All those stupid thought swiped off by the single glimpse of this picture!...
WOW... Ya got the answer...
I can lead a very happy life if i want to see the happy part of it!...
All i can do is stay happy n optimistic in any circumstances....

YA I Love Ma Life!

 

Monday, April 26, 2010

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

M Missing you............

I don’t know what is this … but somehow m feeling that m missing something … something which I really really want to feel to touch!...
I don’t know what is that but m missing something…

Perhaps m a lier.. m lying that I am what I am.. actually I am not…
I am here with all precious things around me..
Still am empty from inside…
But am not here…

Am searching you… but who are you?
Do I know you?

I want some dark silence… some killing silence…
Perhaps I can find you there…

I want some light… some bright light…
Perhaps I can feel you there…

I want some depth… some deeper than the deepest depth…
Perhaps I can touch you there…

Can you tell me who are you?

Is it you dear?

Oh that’s you…!!!
That’s me… the inner me, MYSELF!!!

M missing you terribly!
M missing Myself these days…….

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

The Sunset...

Sunsets never ever have attracted me this much untill i saw this photograph!

why i don't know whenever i see this photo i feel like crying!!...
its amazingly beautifull!
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Hopelessly Hopeful...

…. She was not at all a stranger for me nor her little brother!... whenever I came to office I used to meet them!...
I was not at all interested about them!... but whenever I saw their malnutritioned health I used to thing, “How they r surviving?”… They were small kids of age 4-5 yrs old! May be the girl was little elder than the boy!..perhaps with the rising sun they srart thinking how to arrange todays fooding??? Like all the beggars on this earth their motto of life is “Live to eat not eat to live!”…. they are helpless!... I know!.. because they were just roadside beggers!...

I rarely pity on the beggers! I really don’t feel anything special for any of them; except for them who are really can’t go for any kind of physical works because of their disabilities!... but then also I rarely pay them a coin!..

This girl and her brother (I’ve considered him so!!) was also not different for me!... but I have a real weakness for kids! I always observe them with curiosity!... that girl had those ugly copper coloured curly hairs(Just Yucks!)! she had that extra large belly, explaining that some terrible worm working inside! She rarely wear something, even I have seen her totally nude for so many times (Its OK that she is not wearing anything or not having anything to wear right now, because she is only 5-6 yrs old; but what about the time after 6-7 yrs from now?! Isn’t it terrifying? No one on this earth needs an official announcement that a girl has grown up;be it’s a normal girl or roadside one! Is hardly matters!)!... I found everything related to her ugly!.. she was not at all cute or some thing like that!.. but that boy was so cute to look at! U may not find that at the first sight!...but if u observe him carefully he’s a very cute child!... specially his laugh just awesome! He used to laugh as if he was the most happiest child on this earth!.. his laughter always surprises me!...how can this creature can even gather the power to laugh that much??!.. he rarely get something to eat! He’s not healthy! Though also he can laugh and smile!...strange!..
After the office i used to wait for the bus and that whole time I used to observe them both!
They were just my time pass!... if they come to me n beg something I always chose to come to a safe place, far away from them!


That day when i reached my office and got down from the bus I saw the boy begger was crying his heart out near the footpath! I looked around to find out his sister!.. perhaps she went somewhere to collect food!... I again looked at the boy, he was sobbing badly!.. suddenly the boy noticed me that I was looking at him! His grief increased and cried again loudly... don’t know why I smiled at him!.. he hold back his tears and looked at me; perhaps my action made him confused! “Why she’s smiling?!” perhaps he was thinking!!... after a pause he ignored my presence started crying againg!.. he again stole a glance and looked at me; I again gave him a smile! This time that dirty cute begger couldn’t stop his smile!! He also tried to smile but he was crying previously! So it took some time for him to decide what to do exactly! Meanwhile he was continuing both of his jobs! He was crying delivering the irritating sound but smiling at me!...
I couldn’t stop laughing at his innocent deeds!but immediately realized that am on the main road!.. if someone is observing me he might be thinking that am a mad girl!... I maintained ma reputation and ma dignity and left the place for office!..i crossed the boy…I patted his head! He touched my hand trying to hold it…I removed ma hands! His touch was the same as a normal child could have!.. soft, natural!
First time in my life I had a feelings of doing something for that boy!... I am earning I should give him something to help him!... I felt good that day!... the ME inside me was feeling really happy; SHE appreciated me for the whole day!... returning from the office I gave the boy a 2 ruppes coin! (I can’t even invest a single paisa on beggers; that day I gave 2 ruppes! I surprised myself!!)


After that day it was one of ma regular habits to give the boy one coin, sometimes one chocolate etc!.. just he had to give me a smile! And my heart melts away!...



…I hate to travel by bus! Seriously sometimes its just irritating! Specially when it is over crowded!! Ewe!!.. but I have no other options to travel from my home to office!... so have to accept everything!!..

that day I was feeling like the bus was over crowded then usual!.. full of passengers, no place to place your foot somewhere on the bus floor!!.. I was sitting on the third seat! After 10 minutes I will reach my stop for office!... so I preferred to struggle when there was two more stops to go for my particular stop, to get out of the crowd n get down from the bus in time!... uff its really pathetic experience! U have to take care of everything u have while getting out of that crowded hell; starting from your hairstyle to your cloth, your bags your purse..everything!... after struggling for quite a while I maintained myself to come out safely from the bus at time!... “uff! Thank God!!”.. I thought!.. after getting down, I was searching for my cute begger!.. I saw him!.. “There!”.. I opened my hand bag to take out my purse to give him one coin!.. he was happy seeing me! M his regular customer now!
…..I tried hard but I couldn’t manage to find out my purse!... ”Where is it!! I have kept it here only! Even I have given the bus fare also!!” my mind was continuously speaking!.. the boy came near to me opening his palms! He was smiling! But I couldn’t!.. “Where r u damn it!” I was getting frustrated!... my mind was not ready to accept the fact that someone had stole my purse in the bus!... I had an immediate calculation! Three hundred rupees notes, some coins, my id card along with my ATM!!! No way!! I have lost everything????!!!... I searched my hand bag as clearly as possible!.. no there was no any single purse in my bag!... I felt like crying there only! That was the first time m facing that situation!... main tensen was the ATM card! I ‘ve to block it immediately!...

that boy was still there standing for my single response! That day I didn’t even smiled at him!.. and for quite some time I had been busy with my hand bag! Of course he was getting curious!.. he asked me money raising his palms! I ignored perhaps!... suddenly he started pulling my kurta pointing his stomach!..
that time only I was about to rush to the bank for blocking the ATM! My mind was totally blank at that moment! I was already frustrated to its peak! And that boy was pulling my kurta continuously!!... I couldn’t understand what happened to me, but I did the worst job ever! I turned back and slapped him tight!!... it took some time to understand for the boy what his regular customer has done to him!!... but I realized immediately!.. many of the passerby might be observing me n my deeds but for them this boy was a mere begger!! But I have to save my reputation!.. I immediately left that place n rush for the bus to the bank!...
I knew that I have done something tremendously bad!... I slapped him!.. it was really very hard for that 4 yr old to bare!.. I heard he was crying!! I looked back! He was still holding his cheeks! My godness! He was continuously crying hard and his sister was trying to convince him anyway!...
I couldn’t see more!...
I took my next bus n rush to the bank!
I promised myself to give him something in the evening while returning!




That evening I was not able to find those two kids at the same spot!
“Where they have gone??”
I blocked my ATM, and had withdrawn some money from the bank! I bought one chocolate for the boy! I was feeling so sorry for him!... his crying face was coming infront of my eyes!
But that evening they were not there!..
“Lets try it tomorrow!” I went home!


But that “Tomorrow” never came!... I tried to find them out! Went to nearest bagger’s point also! But they were absent!...

Today I had my last working day!.. but those mulnutritioned creature were still absent!
They left the spot! They left me!...
They left my coins….
I felt a lump in my throat!..
I took the bus for home!



My mind was constantly saying sorry to him; but the ME inside me was cursing me!....
Some how m feeling I have spoiled his laughter!...
“Sorry!!”.. my heavey mind spoke to him!



M hopelessly hopeful that somewhere someone again giving them some precious moments to smile to laugh, some chocolates, some coins with love, some touches of love but of course without slapping them, without betraying them!!..
They can be loved because they also are leading one life!... without any reputation!
But still they are hopelessly hopeful!.. like me…

Friday, November 27, 2009

O' my sleeping child....

I was returning from my office that day by bus!.. I always fell sleepy while returning!!
I was about to sleep when i noticed one little girl! She came to near my seat! The bus was full of passengers so she and her father was standing near ma seat..


I noticed the girl. She was cuter than the cutiest!!...Age was about 5-6 yrs! She has the golden brown long hairs, with shiny red cheeks and two small bright eyes!!..WOW!!...I smiled at her! She didn't reply!..She was looking through the window and ma seat was the window side seat! I took the chance and called her to sit on ma lap!She looked at her father for the allotment... He nodded his head! She came n sit with me!


Her hairs were playing with the wind and it was equally hitting ma face!.. I realy love that experience!
Several times i asked her name but she didn't replied!Perhaps she had to ask her father for that!!No probs! I was happy that she was sitting on ma lap!!


After a while, i felt that she was leaning against ma chest! i removed her hairs from her face n saw she was sleeping!!....I looked around for her father! he was sitting in the opposite row.
Fine no prob, i can handle her!
I hold her tight so that she can be comfortable with her nap!...
I again looked at her!!
She was just looking WOW!!...With that golden hairs falling on her cheeks she was looking the Most Gorgeous Baby on the Earth!
How can someone be so cute,so innocent and so soft to look at!???!!!


I personally love watching some one sleeping!!...and if tis a baby than i can forget the whole world!...I cant resist maself from hugging n kissing a cute child!!!...
That day also i was helpless!!


i removed the hairs from her face and gave her a sweet little kiss on her cheeks!!
"Love You Baby!" my mind spoke!!....After that relaxing deed i suddenly realised her father was looking at me!!!...Ma God...!!!
"He'll certainly b angry with me!!" my mind again spoke with doubts!!
I looked at him! He smiled back to me!! "Great!!" i thought!...
I also greeted him with smile!...
"Her name is Oinitom!" her dad said!...I nodded and again looked at her!!
"Oinitom!....I Love You dear!"... i again hold her tight to me...



I have heard that there is one song saying "O' my sleping child!"....
I realy don't know how the song goes and how's the lyrics!!
But that day that moment having the sweetest baby on ma lap that few wordings came to my mind!!

PS: I have to arrange the song anyhow! By the way hows the song sounds??!! is it good???

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Memories

I was little bit surprised by his behavior! He was holding that pen and the writing pad and giving all the answers by writing on it… papa was busy talking to him. I thought he might be dumb! Perhaps he cant speak or he has got some infection in his toung or something like that! This “infection” terms always comes to my mind whenever I enter papa’s patho lab! I really don’t think in a patho lab one can expect a different word other than this!
Whatever! That man and his deeds were really very interesting!.. my papa was questioning something and he was giving answers by writing! I was observing his writing speed and he was very fat at his work!
“meet my daughter!” papa introduce me with him!...i was not at all ready for that moment!... I just smiled! He offered his hand with a cute smile on his lips! I felt the firm grip! I wanted to know whether he was ill or just cant speak… I was busy in search of a MY MOMENT with papa so that I can ask him about the condition of that man! I didn’t have to wait long. “He neither can hear nor speak! He’s Kanu Ba’s brother in law! Remember her??... he has passed law this year! Look at his handwriting!” papa gave me a piece of paper! There were some Assamese scripts written. I agreed with papa! He has written that beautifully! For the first time i made a direct eye contact with that man! A sweet smile was covering his lips! He was a person in his late twenties. Had a fare complexion and have got two broad eyes! More than his eyes, I loved the shape of his eyebrows! It has got a shape that of a bow!!... he was wearing T-shirt with that faded jeans… for the first time I had an direct interaction with that kind of person! Means physically retarded! I really don’t know whether it will be the appropriate word to describe him, “Retarded”!... was amazed like anything and I was starring at him!... but It was my luck that by that time he was busy with his mobile!writting some messege!
“if he cant hear you then how did he was answering you! He cant hear anything na?” I asked papa… I saw that he was not using the hearing aids also! Papa just smiled and said, “he can read your lips!” it was like another googly for me!... I have heard all that things, have seen in movies that someone reading your lips movements! Again I started starring at him! He suddenly looked up to me… perhaps ma facial expressions were telling him that I was bit confused! He wrote something on the pad and gave it to me. There were the words “WHAT?” I moved to papa! What to tell him?? “ ask his name!” papa tried to rescue me! I asked! He observed ma lips smiled! Gave me another piece of paper writing his name. “Madhur”! “what a sweet name!” I thought. Then after that I started asking him questions and he was successfully and brilliantly gave me the answers with the pen and thepapers! I saw him laughing,but it was totally soundless! “How to react to this person? Should I be sad that he has some limitations in his life or happy that against all the odds he’s enjoying life!?” I was confirmed that he was really very comfortable with us! Felt happy for him! Papa asked him suddenly, “when will u marry???”
I waited for the answer eagerly because that was the same question I was thinking about!
He gave the paper to papa writing “Yes, am in search of ma partner!”
Papa: “what quality do you want in that girl?”
Madhur: “she should also be deaf and dumb like me!”
I was just touched by his answer! After giving that paper to papa he laughed! Soundless!!
I still was starring at him! He looked at me! Two beautiful deep eyes, that sweet smile on his lips… how amazing this person is!... I started imagining his life after his marriage! Two silent persons! For people like us, silence can kill someone, but for them that silence will be full of words and emotions! That will be the another beauty of life!...
I was leaving my papa’s lab. I said him goodbye! He replied and gave me a piece of paper again!
“you have a good heart! Never let it die! God bless you. You look beautiful when smile!” those words were enough to make ma eyes wet! I left the lab as soon as possible! I didn’t look back! I treasured that paper till the starting of ma engineering life! Papa asked me that night what did he write in that last paper! I lied him and said, “that was only ‘Bye’!”
But it was ma bad luck that I lose that paper!... where and how don’t know! But I still remember his handwriting!
Yesterday papa told me that Madhur died last month! He was suffering from cancer!
Today am missing his that piece of paper, which he gave me 6 years back!
Why didn’t I look back to him that day???!!! I still remember his silent eyes, his bow shaped eyebrows!
Madhur didnt got the chance of marrying someone…

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

One Poem

Want to save here one poem which was dedicated to me by one of my special friends. I was just touched by the beautiful feelings that the poem is carrying… here it is…

“lost in my small world,

Bewildered was i….

So much that even the kiss of happiness just gone pass by…

The feeling of hatred was so strong,

That I could sense the air of destruction creeping along…

But then I looked upto an angel crossing by…

My heart trembled, my hands shookand I felt a bit shy!

But she made me feel that, I was so wrong!

My eyes stared at her as if asking, “Dear, why you took so long?”

Her warmth swept along all the sadness..

And suddenly I felt I was on high,

It was thou, my angel, who changed my life..

And now I confess, m no longer shy!”