Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Fragrance of Life



Smell or Odor…
These two words are very much familiar to us. Many times it gives us intense pleasure and sometimes fills our heart with sour feeling!! But one thing is always for sure that no one can intentionally memorise a smell! Its actually our unconscious mind and our brain which always store each and every smell which we encounter in our lifetime! We can easily understand by smelling the air around us that the gas is leaking, some delicious food is in there in the kitchen, someone has used a strong smelling perfume etc. etc…
It’s a natural phenomena that until and unless one smells a good food, some delicious you don’t really feels hungry! And after smelling that you cant stop your appetite!!
Smells always reminds us about some good, something tasty and something beautiful!
These smells or odors always carry some memories and some events with it. I wanted to discuss that only in this post. All these above part are nothing but the introduction…
When I was in class I, my papa bought me one study table. It was the biggest and the most precious gift at that time for me! As a kid I used to study a lot; and after the arrival of that study table, I became a “Book Worm”!! Seriously, within a very short time that table became my whole world! That feeling of sitting on the chair and having a big, brilliant table in front of myself with various types of books on it, filled my heart with pride and surprise that, “How much I have grown up!!!”
My mom used to give me milk during my studies. I hate milk like anything! But she knew, if am studing that too with the study table, then there will be no objections and complains about the milk! I’ll drink it delightfully!!
That table had two drawers. I used to store my color pencils there. Whenever I used to open the drawer a “Woody” smell comes out of it! I loved that smell a lot… days have passed, I have grown up and ma requirements also! That study table also grew older, without increasing the size! So that sweet smelling small study table was replaced by another bigger one…
My mom now uses that table in her kitchen! One of the drawers have broken! The other one we rarely open! That old table has lost its color, its strength!... but one thing is still same…. Today also whenever I open the drawer that “Woody” smell comes out of it! And that smell take me around 18-19 yrs back, within a fraction of seconds!... I can smell my childhood!! It has a beautifull “Woody” smell!!
It’s a feeling, so good, nice and nostalgic!
…Not just the nonliving things, one particular individual also deliver some good smell always! Am not talking about using special scents or perfumes. Like my mom, my dad, my granny always smells like “Mom” “Dad” and “Grandma”!!! it’s a fact!
From my childhood, I used to sleep with ma grandma, whenever I went to my “Mama Ghar”. Grandma’s bed always smells like “Grandma”!... seriously! Recently my granny came to our home for her treatment. In those days also I slept with her. When she went back to mama ghar, I discovered that granny left her “Grandma” smell in that bed also, which was used by my mom before grandma, and previously it smells like “Mom”!!!... I love “Grandma” smell a lot!
When I was in hostel during my Engg, my mom gave me her shawl. During winters I cant imagine my mom without that shawl. But on that special winter of my first year, she gave it to me! Whenever I used it, I used to miss my mom! That shawl carried that “Mom” smell! I used to feel home sick!! Sometimes the conditions were so bad that I used to cry out of home sickness!!
I left using that shawl afterwards! But whenever I felt low, depressed, I used to sleep with that! It gave me strength and warm in its special way!
I told mom about all these feelings; but she was like its natural, extremely natural!... may be! But I fell some uniqueness within it!...
… the feelings of the first love is very special to everyone! No one on this planet can ignore this fact!... it’s a feelings which can make you feel peace in your most disturbed state of mind also!... that serenity is awesome!!..
I also experienced this feelings almost seven yrs back! But unfortunately, my this feelings is related with a very pungent smell!!.. I had never realized it till last yr. Around in November last yr, I went to a friend’s home. Her place was near our old coaching centre. It is a nostalgic place for me for so many reasons! But the main was that I met him first here itself!
Whatever that incidence is now 7-8 yrs old. Things have changed a lot now…
When I was returning from my friend’s home and waiting for the bus, a strong pungent smell hit ma nose! Instantly I felt like crying! I was bit depressed for a moment! As if m missing something!
“Why am feeling like this??!!” that smell was still in the air! Suddenly that closed doors of my past opened up… I realize that this was the same spot where I used to wait for bus after my coaching. And that special person also used to come to that place, sometimes for the bus and sometimes for other purpose! Those anxious days of my life also had this smell! Am writing anxious, but it was a beautiful anxiety!!
Last yr only that smell made me curious! Where from this smell is coming??!! I discovered a tree where new flowers were blooming! And that new flowers delivering that scent(!!?). it was not a known plant for me! I asked my dad also about it but he was also unaware of the name…
While my mom blocks her nose whenever she encounter this smell of the tree, I always fill my lungs with that scent, that air, so that I can feel that innocent and special feelings once again….


I always wonder, whether I have some smell or scent??? Do I smell like something???
My mom answers, “No!” my dad said, “You use a strong deo!” … these are not my type of answers!
I got my answer few days back!
My uncle has got his transfer to Silsar last month. Uncle, aunty and my sweet little cute cousin brother came for dinner before leaving to that place.... my mom always gives the old cloths of my brother to my cousin brothers. That day my little cousin was “lucky person” to get those cloths!..( I have named my cousin bro as Munu and he calls me Shunu! We are very much attached to each other, though he’s 18yrs younger than me!!)
Munu was excited like anything! For him those were his new cloths! He was also helping mom to find out the suitable one for him!!
Suddenly he got stuck at one of my old frocks!.. “ I want this!” munu was sure about his decision! Mom was trying to convince him that it was not for boys it was for gilrs! But he was continuously crying for that frock!
“Ok,Ok! Ask shunu whether she’ll give it to u or not?!” mom knows that am very much possessive about my things. So she gave that solution to him!
Munu came to me with that frock in his hands! “will you give it to me!” my instant answer was NO!! “its not for you boys, its for girls!”
He was curious, a bit tensed! “I’m not going to wear this!!...!”
“then??!” I was bit surprised! After a pause he asked me, “will you come to meet me regularly when I’ll go to silsar??”
I took him on my lap and replied, “no love that will not be possible for me to come there! Its far away from Guwahati!.. I’ll call u regularly!...!”
Munu was happy instantly and smiled! He said, “ Ok then. Give this frock to me! It smells like YOU!... I’ll not miss you anymore there!!...!”
A storm of emotions hit me! Immediately I felt like crying out of surprise! That 7 yrs old cutiepie has found me in my frock!! For him it was smelling like ME!!
I gave that frock to him. My mom was bit surprised but I wasn’t! I know the reason why am giving this to Munu! He was happy like anything!.. he gave me his drawing book so that I wont miss him! But it smells like color more than Munu!!.. still that drawing book always remind me about my cutiepie brother Munu!
That day I got my answer! I also carry some scent which make me different from others!....


…. Every person in this world has some scent, some good and some beautifull within him!
Smell it, treasure it and cherish those moments….


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